Monday, December 6, 2010
I had pretty much given up hope for having a family, and was struggling with the question of whether or not to go down the fertility path. Which I didn't really want to do to be honest. Besides the expense, which wasn't affordable, and as much as I would like a family with mulitiple children, I certainly did not want to have a litter of them all at once.Though I have to admit it is more efficient that way to get it all over with in one birth. In fact, for awhile I was hoping I would be having twins for that very reason, but no such luck.
The strange this is, as happy and excited as we are, I'm still in denial that come June this baby will actually have to come out. Not really looking forward to that part. In fact I'm quite scared. I suppose when the time comes it will all work itself out. But really, it would be very nice, if science could come up with another way to have children that was less scary, painful and intimidating. I have 6 1/2 more months, anything is possible right?
In the meantime, I'm happy awaiting the time when the gag reflex turns off, and the heartburn and bloating go away or least subside. This is why I am spending most of my days like a beached whale on the couch reading instead of painting, updating Etsy and Facebook, twittering etc. If my doctor is right and these ailments go away in the second trimester, I expect I will return to the studio, and finish some very neglected paintings. At least I hope I do. :)